This is what I wore on Mother's day. This dress is one of my favorites, but the material is so silky that I'm often stumped at how I can dress it down - especially when pairing it with such bold shoes! I figured that a denim jacket dressed everything down, so that's what I did. I have to admit, I really love the way it turned out.
Tomorrow I am going to get my hair cut - just a few inches off the bottom and trim up my layers and bangs. I'm getting my senior portraits taken on Monday and I decided that my hair is a bit too "bushman" to get them taken like this. lol!
Speaking of my graduation photos, would "y'all" mind helping me with something? I need to decide on 5-6 outfits to bring to the photo shoot - so we'll have options - and so far I only two that I for sure bringing. Eep! So if you all wouldn't mind commenting and tell me your favorite dress/outfit you've seen here on le blog it would be much appreciated!
All these heavy thoughts will try to weigh you down. But not this time."
~ Shooting Star by Owl City
Lately I feel like the whole world is resting on my shoulders. My life hasn't always been easy, and I can testify to the saying that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." I'm not the happy-go-lucky optimist most people think I am. I'm an optimist by choice because it was either that or be a cynical pessimist for the rest of my life and I didn't want that.
The thing is, I'm a fighter. I always have been and I always will be. That's not going to change. I'm also incredibly protective of those I live. My attitude is "say whatever you want about me - I'll just laugh it off and then go prove you wrong - but if you hurt those I love, then you'll pay." I feel the need to take care of everyone and I run myself into the ground trying to.
Because the truth is, I don't always have the answers. I don't always have the strength to go on - but I feel like I should. Sometimes I just want to be sad, or be alone, or just take care of me but I feel guilty about that. I'm the one who is supposed to take care of everyone else. Who am I not to have the answers? Who am I to want to take care of myself when everyone else needs me so badly?
Sometimes I forget that I'm just one girl barely out of high school. I'm my own worst enemy because I demand stuff of myself that one one else would dare to expect from me. I place burdens on myself that aren't mine and shouldn't be mine to bare. But I don't know how not to. I don't know how to say "right now I need to take care of myself, and I'll help you later" without feeling like a terrible sister and friend.
I don't know how to just be me.
Edit: This dress was part of another swap with Lauren of Someone Like You. You can see how she styled it here.
This is a remix of one of the brand new songs by Owl City. The original song can be heard here (I couldn't find a video with it to embed) and will be included on Owl City's new EP, Shooting Stars, which will be released tomorrow. Yay!!!!
So far Adam has released three songs from the new EP: Take it All Away, Dementia, and Gold. Dementia is the most like his last two albums, but Take it All Away, and Gold are very different. A new style for Owl City. And I know that a lot of people don't like it, but I just love it! It's totally different, and I'm not going to say I like it more than the other three albums, but I like it just as much! Honestly, it seems that no matter what Adam Young does I like it. From the simple, acoustic sounds of An Airplane Carried Me to Bed, to the techno sounds of Ocean Eyes and All things Bright and Beautiful, to the more traditional pop sounds (from what I can tell so far) of Shooting Stars - I love it all! Adam Young has yet to disappoint me and I seriously cannot wait to get Shooting Stars loaded onto my iPod! ♥
So, to sum up this incredibly long Music Monday post: I love Owl City and I'm an Adam Young fan for life!
In other news, I'm really sorry I've not been around much the past couple weeks. A lot has been going on, and I've been stressed out. Obviously my body doesn't deal well with stress because I've been tired, not sleeping well, and extremely moody. I've been really depressed and not wanting to do much of anything, but I'm finally starting to get out of it, and excited to blog again. Woohoo! I have a bunch of backlogged outfits to post this week!
Once upon a time I was on Instagram quite often. Then I dropped my iPod touch about six inches onto the cement floor in the basement of my house and the screen shattered into a million pieces. *facepalm* Nowadays I can only get on once in a while when I comandeer my mom's phone. Boo!
Anyway, last week I was able to get it long enough to take some of my favorite instagram photos ever (of the ones I've taken, that is), so I thought I'd share them with you all.
I also have a couple outfit posts from last week that I'm planning on getting around to posting this week, along with a post on my party planning progress, so stay tuned for that. I'm trying to pull myself out of this rut. :-P
Hi, everyone. I know I haven't been around much the past week. I've been really - well, sort of just blah! I haven't felt like blogging. I don't want to be all "I'm so sick of the blogsphere" but lately, I kinda am, and I just really, really need to get this off my chest, so please bare with me...
I've noticed a tend among bloggers lately (and no, it has nothing to do with mason jars, mustaches, or "weird" colored hair) it has to do with a loss of inspiration, a feeling of being lost, etc. I know that Elizabeth has already posted on this subject, and I feel like I've seen at least one other post on it, but I might just be thinking of all the tweets I've seen echoing the same feelings.
And I think Elizabeth put it perfectly when she said "Maybe this is just blogger burnout on my part, or maybe the climate online really is shifting, I'm not sure." It's something that keeps popping up in my mind. Is the climate online really changing? Is it just a coincidence that so many bloggers are feeling the same way all at once?
I'm inclined to think that it really is changing. When I look around at all the bullying, competition, and self worth issues going around the world today, I'm sort of surprised it's taken this long to migrate into the blogosphere. The question I'm really wrestling with is what to do about it. I'm not a quitter - I'm a fighter. I always have been and I always will be. I'm not going to let a bunch of nastiest scare me away from something I love, but sitting back and taking it isn't exactly the way to deal with it, either. And just not looking can only work for so long - unless I were to disable commenting, stop giving out my email address, and quit Twitter; which isn't going to happen any time soon. But something has to change.
I think the fault partly lies with the bloggers. I think we've forgotten to laugh and the ridiculousness of people who feel the need to tear us down to build themselves up. I remember several months ago when a friend of mine tweeting about a nasty comment she received from someone ripping on her for being "boring" and other such things. I remember laughing at the ridiculousness of it all with her. But lately, I see bloggers complaining about the trolls, and how the blogosphere isn't a positive place anymore. But isn't complaining about the trolls and loss of positivity only adding the negativity? Isn't it just giving into the haters? To be honest, the trolls don't bother me all that much. I occasionally read GOMI (occasionally meaning quite often) and usually walk away from it with a good laugh. What bothers me is seeing girls I know giving into the trolls by talking about it. Complaining about it. Adding to the negativity by going on Twitter and being like "oh I'm so tired of these haters."
Maybe I'm way off base here, but in my experience the best way to fight negativity and cynicism is with positivity. That's what I used to love about the blogsphere. I used to see girls lifting each other up and laughing with each other when random trolls came around complaining. But lately, I don't see that anymore.
It's not the trolls and haters that make me tired of the blogsphere - it's the bloggers who go around complaining about them.
What do you think? Do you agree with me or think I'm a crack pot?Comment and let me know. I would absolutely love to hear your opinions/thoughts on this matter.
Disclaimer: I wrote this post with extremely little editing. It's basically just my thoughts spilling out on this subject, so some of it may be very rough/sound weird. Also I borrowed this idea from Kaehla Bee who has a regular feature called "Honest to Blog."
Maddie and I had so much fun making our last outfit video, that we decided to do another! My little sis is a total YouTube junkie, and does a great job with these videos. Plus she sometimes vlogs, so you should totally check out her channel because she's hilarious. ♥
